For Each A Road

"Do not follow where the path may lead. Go instead where there is no path and leave a trail..."

The Girls; Lori Lansens.

Forever Friends

I'm sorry I couldn't take your call
I'm sorry you had to talk to silence
I'm sorry you felt so alone


I'm sorry I live a million miles away
I'm sorry I can't give you a hug
I'm sorry I can't be the best friend you need

For what it's worth, I'll never be sorry I met you, only sorry that it wasn't sooner and that I couldn't take you with me

xoxo

Feel Good.

I just watched my Las Vegas skydive as I came across it just now. This was the soundtrack to it. Never really listened to the lyrics before, I like it ;o)

Filter - Take A Picture


Awake on my airplane, awake on my airplane
My skin is bare, my skin is theirs
Awake on my airplane, awake on my airplane
My skin is bare, my skin is theirs and,

I feel like a newborn
And I feel like a newborn

Awake on my airplane
Awake on my airplane
I feel so real

Could you take my picture
'Cause I won't remember
Could you take my picture
'Cause I won't remember
Could you take my picture
'Cause I won't remember
Could you take my picture
'Cause I won't remember
Yeah

I don't believe in, I don't believe in
Your sanctity
Your prophecy
I don't believe in I don't believe in
Sanctity - a hypocrisy

Could everyone agree that
No one should be left alone
Could everyone agree that
They should not be left alone, yeah

And I feel like a newborn
And I feel like a newborn
Kicking and screaming

Could you take my picture
'Cause I won't remember
Could you take my picture
'Cause I won't remember
Could you take my picture
'Cause I won't remember
Could you take my picture
'Cause I won't remember
Yeah

Ah, hey dad what do you think about your son now
Aw, hey dad what do you think about your son now

Could you take my picture
'Cause I won't remember
(Won't remember)
Could you take my picture
'Cause I won't remember
(Won't remember)
Could you take my picture
'Cause I won't remember
(I won't remember)
Could you take my picture
(I, oh)
'Cause I won't remember
(I won't remember)

Could you take my picture
'Cause I won't remember
(I won't remember)
Could you take my picture
(I, oh)
'Cause I won't remember
(Won't remember)
Yeah

Happy Ground - Pete Murray

Happy days are coming my way, its been some time, but here to stay,
Is the life of love Ive found, sends me up on happy ground.
Sleepy head has gone to bed, makes me laugh, face turn red,
Giggling down on the ground, I'll pick you up and spin you around.



Seeing him in concert in LDN August 26th :)

His favourite Coldplay song. My colour eyes.

Lust or Love?

Will you still want me for the tears after the smiles?
Will you still want me for the cuddles after the fun?
Will you still want me in the sunshine after the moon?

Will you still need me after advice has been given?
Will you still need me once the lust is over?
Will you still need me when the void has been filled?

Will you still love me tomorrow?
Will you still love me the day after that?
Will you still love me the day after, the day after, the day after?

I hope so.

Feedback

Waaaaaaaaaah I was right! Those ARE the lyrics! WTF Janet??

Cause my swag is serious
Something heavy like a first day period

Nah. Never did :P

And when you go I will remember
I must remember to say...
I never really loved you anyway
No I didnt love you anyway
I never really loved you anyway
I never really loved you anyway
I never loved you anyway
No I didnt love you anyway
Never truly loved you anyway
Im so happy youre moving away
Yeah Im delighted youre moving away

Gemini - By Mr J

Mr J finally finished his painting for me and it's TOTALLY awesome! I took a photo on my phone so it's not that good quality, but you can get the gist of it. i really feel like he captured the essence of me and I can't stop looking at it - it's called "Gemini" haha. I see the image on the left as how i am portrayed and the one on the right with all the inner personality. I could be wrong, but that's how i interpret it so far! It's so intricate. I'll keep staring it and I'm sure more will come to light!

He did good. Better than good, excellent - I love it!!! No one has ever done anything like that for me before so I'm totally chuffed. Can't wait to get it up on the wall :)

Move on Up - Curtis Mayfield

~ one of my favorite songs that keeps me inspired to keep going!

Hush now child and don't you cry
Your folks might understand you by and by
Move on up towards your destination
You may find from time to time
Complications

Bight your lip and take a trip
Though there may be wet road ahead
You cannot slip
So move on up and peace you will find
Into the steeple of beautiful people
Where there's only one kind

So hush now child and don't you cry
Your folks might understand you by and by
Just move on up and keep on wishing
Remember your dreams are your only schemes
So keep on pushing
Take nothing less - not even second best
And do not obey - you must have your say
You can past the test

Move on up!

~ i can't remember how to import videos from U Tube :( why is technology so complicated? (frown, pout, hhmmm)

Things i like about you.

My Birth Chart arrived yesterday, Manc excited me into getting one done the other night when I stayed at her place. I've only skim read it so far and intend to read through it thoroughly now but it triggered a reminder in my head.

When it was my Birthday last year BD sent me an email and it was a list of all the things about me that she liked and it was possibly one of the most beautiful things any friend has ever done for me. The birth chart may tell me about me and I know, I'm going to be captivated by it but nothing beats the understanding that your best friend has of you.

So for a personal keepsake, here it is:

I like how you instantly brighten up a room when you walk into it

I like that you make me laugh

I like the way you write your emails in such a descriptive way

I like that you're so caring and thoughtful of other people's feelings

I like that you help me with make-up and don't make me feel like an incompetent retard :-)

I like that you are funny

I like that you say the things that everyone is thinking but would never, ever say

I like that you bring out my silly side and I can act like idiot and not actually care about it

I like that you take pride in your appearance but without being a barbie or looking like a WAG

I like that you rise to a challenge

I like that you are good with people

I like your cool and quirky apartment

I like that you're so adventurous (and am jealous of all the cool stuff you've done that I could never do)

I like that your clothes always look so well put-together

I like that you are a bit dramatic sometimes

I like that you are so welcoming to everyone you meet

I like that you will try new things

I like that you will tell people you need to poo

I like how you have faced and overcome the problems in life

I like your smile

I like that you are so close to your sister

I like that our step-dads are the same

I like that you feel comfortable enough to ring up and have a cry

I like that everyone who meets you loves you

I like that you're open and honest (but without being brutal)

I like that we can be good friends even without seeing each other as often as we might like

I like that you're brave even if you feel scared

I like your pretty feet

I like your patience with people

I like that you know when enough is enough

All in all.....

I like that we're friends :-)

 

Handstands & Cartwheels

When we were drinking Starbucks at The Fashion Mall in Vegas, this song played on repeat over and over again on a mahosive screen advertising Ipod Nanos. The song drove us crazy as you could here it half way down The Strip day in day out, yet I hear it now and it puts a massive smile on my face - it's just too cute and reminds me of good times :)

I tried to do handstands for you
I tried to do headstands for you
Everytime I fell on you, yeah, everytime I fell
I tried to do handstands for you
But everytime I fell for you
I'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for you.

I tried to do handstands for you
I tried to do handstands for you
Everytime I fell on you, yeah, everytime I fell
I tried to do handstands but everytime I fell for you
I'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for you-ooh-ooh-ooh

For you-ooh-ooh-ooh
So black and blue-ooh-ooh-ooh
For you-ooh-ooh-ooh.

I grabbed some frozen strawberries so I could ice your bruising knees
But frozen things they all unfreeze and now I taste like.... 
All those frozen strawberries I used to chill your bruising knees, 
Hot July ain't good to me
I'm pink and black and blue for you.

I got bruises on my knees for you
And grass stains on my knees for you
Got holes in my new jeans for you
Got pink and black and blue

Got bruises on my knees for you
And grass stains on my knees for you
Got holes in my new jeans for you
Got pink and black and blue for you-ooh-ooh-ooh

For you-ooh-ooh-ooh
So black and blue-ooh-ooh-ooh 
For you-ooh-ooh-ooh

Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo

~ you know, these lyrics remind me of a situation close to my heart...

Kabul; Saib-e-Tabrizi

~ I just finished reading A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hossini on my back to the UK. The book is a beautiful one and if possible, I enjoyed it even more so than I did The Kite Runner (his first novel). Possibly because this time he concentrates on the lives of two women and their fight for survival in a man's world. I'd recommend it to anyone, it's one of those books where you can just feel every emotion the characters feel, it's so real, so well written. Below is the poem of which the book title is extracted from. I find it quite beautiful, that someone could write so passionately about the place they call home. And all of it's hidden secrets behind closed doors

Ah! How beautiful is Kabul encircled by her arid mountains
And Rose, of the trails of thorns she envies
Her gusts of powdered soil, slightly sting my eyes
But I love her, for knowing and loving are born of this same dust

My song exhalts her dazzling tulips
And at the beauty of her trees, I blush
How sparkling the water flows from Pul-I Bastaan!
May Allah protect such beauty from the evil eye of man!

Khizr chose the path to Kabul in order to reach Paradise
For her mountains brought him close to the delights of heaven
From the fort with sprawling walls, A Dragon of protection
Each stone is there more precious than the treasure of Shayagan

Every street of Kabul is enthralling to the eye
Through the bazaars, caravans of Egypt pass
One could not count the moons that shimmer on her roofs
And the thousand splendid suns that hide behind her walls

Her laughter of mornings has the gaiety of flowers
Her nights of darkness, the reflections of lustrous hair
Her melodious nightingales, with passion sing their songs
Ardent tunes, as leaves enflamed, cascading from their throats

And I, I sing in the gardens of Jahanara, of Sharbara
And even the trumpets of heaven envy their green pastures

What You Are, To Me...

A ray of sunshine on an otherwise cloudy day
The smell of freshly cut grass after the rain
Phosphorous twinkling all around me in the midnight sea

The sound of singing to a beautiful melody
A monologue on an empty stage
My favourite song on an old scratched CD

The taste of coffee on a mundane morning
The temptation of ice cream over frozen yogurt
A glass of wine in a hot steamy bubble bath

A photograph lost then found
A phone call from a friend on a lonely evening
A book that you just can't put down

A sneaky cigarette between my fingers
Making love under white sheets
A smile that is just for me

A big bear hug when I'm feeling blue
A little card that says i love you
A wink that is between you and I

Knowing that you have made somebody proud
Being there for a good friend when they are down
Crying to someone who understands your sorrow

Watching an old black and white movie
Reminiscing over childhood memories
Admitting that you don't mind a bit of jazz

Wearing painful shoes so your legs look just-that-little-bit better
Applying make up for a special night out
Looking in the mirror and feeling pretty

Driving my car at full speed down the highway
Dancing all night long
Prancing about in a little sundress

Walking out of the salon with new bouncy hair
Singing in my shower and not caring who hears
Running until I no longer feel the pain

That's what you are to me.

By Your Side ~ Sade

You think i'd leave your side baby
You know me better than that
You think i'd leave you down when you're down on your knees
I wouldn't do that
I'll tell you you're right when you want
And if only you could see into me

Oh when you're cold
I'll be there
Hold you tight to me

When you're on the outside baby and you can`t get in
I will show you you're so much better than you know
When you're lost and you're alone and you can't get back again
I will find you darling and i will bring you home

And if you want to cry
I am here to dry your eyes
And in no time
You'll be fine

You think i'd leave your side baby
You know me better than that
You think I'd leave you down when you're down on your knees
I wouldn't do that
I'll tell you you're right when you want
And if only you could see into me

Oh when you're cold
I'll be there
Hold you tight to me
When you're low
I'll be there
By your side baby

Oh when you're cold
I'll be there
Hold you tight to me
Oh when you're low
I'll be there
By your side baby

Dirty Smirks

In an ideal world my alter ego would say this:

Don't try to intimidate me, you will not suceed
You may think you are getting to me, but in the end, I will come out on top

Don't think that you can come here and push me aside
I am the Queen on my throne and this is my territory

Don't think that people like you, they don't, they are playing the same game you are
You do not have the upper hand, despite the fact that you think you do

Don't think that I am powerless or naive - when it comes to business I am not
I know what you are up to and I have my eye on you all the time

Don't think that you are the one in control here, I can be just as manipulative as you
I may smile sweetly at you but it's as bitter as the look in your eye

You are getting under my skin but I will not let you beat me
I know where I stand and from my eyes you are so far below me I can't even see you


In reality I'd probably say this...

You big fat poo head. Go wash that wax out of your hair and shave off your beard. Pfht!

Should've Been In Love

- I love that I'm still feeling on top of the world, I love that I have this feeling of calm within me, I love that my perspective has gone from glass half empty, to glass half full, I love that my face feels smiley again, I love that my frown lines are fading, I love, love, love this feeling. I love that I feel like myself again... it's been such a long time... thank you.

- This song just started playing on my I Tunes, I don't think I've ever heard it before... the tune is so simple, one man and his guitar. You might read the lyrics and listen to the song and think hu? This song is depressing, but it's not at all, well, it depends how you look at it, doesn't it? It made me smile, it makes so much sense to me... :)

You been dealing with all of these feelings

Like they got you believing they have no meaning,

But they do

Your life's been stinking, your heart's been sinking,

And you're too busy thinking to stop

You blink and you're blue

Should've been in love

Should've been in love

Your mind's been racing, your heart's been chasing,

And you might as well face it, time's wasting,

It's true

Your life's been stinking, your heart's been shrinking,

And you're too busy thinking to stop

You blink and you're blue

Should've been in love

Should've been in love

I know how it goes, So I just had to let you know I know

My life's been stinking, my heart's been shrinking,

And I'm too busy thinking to stopI blink and you're gone

Should've been in love

We should've been in love

We should've been in love

~Wilco~

A Story To Live By

I hate forwards, but this one, although cheesey and not wirtten particularily well, did send a little shiver up my spine. It certainly made ME think....

There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see the world, I would marry you.'

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend.

He asked her,
'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?'

The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her.

She hadn't expected that.

The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him.

Her boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying:

'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine.'

This is how the human brain often works when our status changes. Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their side in the most painful situations.


Life Is a Gift
Today before you say an unkind word - Think of someone who can't speak.
Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who has nothing to eat.
Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's crying out to GOD for a companion.
Today before you complain about life - Think of someone who died too early on this earth.
Before you complain about your children - Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.
Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or sweep - Think of the people who are living in the streets.
Before whining about the distance you drive Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.
And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job.
But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another - Remember that not one of us is without sin.
And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on your face and think: you're alive and still around.
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I PRAY THIS MOVES AROUND
THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE...

Sing when you're wining

Do you ever find that that you have a habit you tend to do when you’re stressed/ not stressed, happy/ unhappy? Like for me, if I’m stressed I tend to not eat because my tummy is tied up in knots and it makes me feel nauseous, whereas when I’m sad, I tend to eat a lot (probably for comfort). Sometimes you don’t even realize you’re doing it, right? It’s just a natural instinct.

Well for me, there is one other. Singing. And when I’m happy the place I love singing the most is (no, not in the shower) in my car. With the volume up so that the base is distorted and my windscreen mirror vibrates to the beat. One thing I’ve noticed is that if I have something on my mind that is causing me concern, I tend to zone out in the car, I can’t handle the loud sound and so turn it down and just sit and wait for the journey to end.

This morning I sang in my car (like really sang, from the heart) for the first time in over a week. I sang loudly, so loudly, completely out of tune and with the window down. To the extent that two people in the next lane laughed at me!

Its funny how just one action that normally comes so naturally without thought can be switched off when you’re not in the right frame of mind and when it comes back to you, something inside is telling you that you’re doing ok. And that you’ll be fine. Just fine :)

I'm Yours - Jason Mraz

I love these lyrics, H sent them to me last week and I think they are beautiful. In fact, I think I need to buy Jason Mraz' album, every song leaves you with a lingering memory or warm feeling inside.

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it

I tried to get you but you're so hot that I melted

I fell right through the cracks

And now I'm trying to get back

Before the cool done run outI'll be giving it my bestest

Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention

I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you're free

Look into your heart and you'll find love love love (love)

Listen to the music of the moment, maybe sing with me

All - ah peaceful melody

And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

Scooch on closer dear

And I will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror

And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer

But my breath fogged up the glass

And so I drew a new face and laughed

I guess what I'm be saying is there ain't no better reason

To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons

It's what we aim to do

Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you're free

Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours

Please don't, please don't, please don't

There's no need to complicate

Cause our time is short

This is out fate, I'm yours